you might be an open book, but me, i'm a little more than that. i'm just a girl living for now, in this moment. i must warn you, i don't think before i say things and i don't take well to not getting my way. sometimes, my behavior gets out of line and i tend to assume the worst about things, soon blowing it out of proportion. forgiveness is very hard to me, it's not something i do often. once you piss me off, or hurt me, there's no going back to what used to be. there always seems to be something on my mind, for my mind never shuts down. i have ridiculous mood swings, pushing me to the point where i push everyone away. i have the hardest time opening up to someone, no matter how close to you i may be. i'm so scared of the thought of losing someone who i hold close to my heart, it's my biggest fear along with being alone.